Friends..

It is late, i can not sleep because i've been up so long last week doing homework especially these last few days.

Friends... I've had a few over the years.
When i was little it was they neighbour girls.. or atleast i thought they were my friends and a boy named Simon at my childminder.
When i started school i suddenly found myself without friends. This is why i said or atleast i thought those neighbour girls were my friends, because while one moved away the other one was actually in my class. She didn't do anything at all to help me when my classmates started picking on me and bullying me, i guess she wanted to be popular or was just to dumb to see.
Today i think she was the worst one tbh, ones she gave me a tip about my clothes. You know to make me blend in i should follow the trends like the rest of the airheads.
They weren't really stupid or anything but i'd say they are very ignorant and with a low EQ (emotional quality).
Ever since i started my first day of pre-school till i finnished 9:th grade i never had a real friend. Sure i had friends, even ones i called bestfriends but they weren't real. One told me that since we were only friends anyways caus we didn't have anyone else, she would propobly not hang out with me anymore when we transfered to our new school in 4:th grade. After that i didn't wanna hang out with her anymore. I may have been lonely and bullied but i wouldn't let anyone talk to me like that and still hang out with them. I got way more self respect than that.
The other "besty" i had "dumped" me close to our graduation in 6:th grade leaving me alone to attend Highschool (age 13-15). Had a few friends that came and went then too that wasn't really real either. To think about it the only friend i've had that has stayed with me for a long time is my cousin. She was my best friend when i was yuonger eventhough she is 5 years younger than me. Ofcourse we drifted a bit apart when she started school and i got my first boyfriend and all but i still concider her my friend.

This post may seem very negative but im coming to the good part.
When i started Gymnasium at 16 it turned around for me.
I started hanging out with a girl in my class that was a bit different just like me.
She then introduced me to my friends maria and Maria who introduced us to more people.
These people that i became friends with then are still alot of my closest friends today and they in turn have made me find even more friends.
These people are true friends because no matter how long time we spend apart we are still really good friends when we see eachother again.

I love you guys <3


Here you go have a good laugh

Must be one of the lamest songs in swedish history but this was the song i thought about related to friends.